Description : Mostak: I want to talk about myself, but my profession frustrates my will. I want to talk about my thoughts, my inclinations, my aspirations, but my profession forces me to bury these thoughts deep within me. I do not think it is possible to repress my sexuality by the weight of my profession, and this forces me to live a double life. But I do not want to move away from my profession for this, as that is also something I deeply believe in. I started to understand my homosexuality when I was 11 or 12. I could never imagine the same pleasures and enjoyment with a girl. I tried to change. I dropped out from my general education and got admitted into a "Madrasa" ? a religious school ?to become a man of religion, hoping that perhaps that would help me change. But I have not changed. I have completed "Hafizi" and then "Kariani" in Madrasa. I have even been through religious ?medical treatment? but nothing has ever changed for me. I now believe that my condition is God-gifted. Today, I am happy as I am, living peacefully with my hopes and dreams. Dhaka; Bangladesh. Part of the Photo Story, Inner Face, by Gazi Nafis Ahmed.